No Trainwrecks Here Either

It’s been a little quiet around here lately. Is everybody still doing okay? I’ve meant to write, I’ve just been really busy. This week was much better than last week. I didn’t stay completely on track, but did well for the most part. I’m happy to say that I’ve hit a small milestone. I’ve lost 10 pounds. That’s not too bad, but I’m not real happy with it. At the rate I’m going, I’m still going to weigh around 200 pounds when we go to Mexico. While I seem to have my portions under control, I need to do better with what I’m eating. I also need to be exercising. As of right now, I’m not doing anything. Nothing. I absolutely HATE working out. I’d rather not eat than to work out. I have no excuse other than sheer laziness. I renewed my gym membership today though, and at a much cheaper rate than I’ve been paying. I’m going to make a genuine effort at going. You guys keep me in check, ok?

On an unrelated note, did you watch the Biggest Loser last night?! I was heartbroken to see Dan go home. He needed to be there more than anybody! I’m glad to see he’s done so well at home. I wish I could say the same about his friend who seems very apathetic about the whole thing. But anyway. The other half of the teams are back now and I can’t wait til next week’s episode!

Salt is the Devil!

That’s what I’ve decided anyway. I don’t eat a lot of table salt. As a matter of fact, I very rarely add any table salt to the foot I’m eating. But often there is a lot of salt already in the foods that we eat, especially if you eat out. Pre-packaged foods often have a lot of salt in them also.

I can remember a few seasons back on The Biggest Loser, Jillian had a team member who was working out like crazy and wasn’t overeating but could not seem to get his weight to go down. There was one small thing he wasn’t recording on his food logs because he didn’t think it really mattered. He was marinating his meats in soy sauce, which is absolutely loaded with salt. I thought Jillian was going to kill him. She had him cut out the soy sauce, and his weight starting melting off again. Problem solved!

This past weekend, I went out to eat with my mom a couple of times. I didn’t add any salt to any of my food at all, but I noticed that shortly after leaving the restaurants that my fingers were swelling and I felt bloated all over. WAY too much sodium! And I paid for it on the scale this week too! When I weighed myself Monday morning, I had gained three pounds back. I could still feel the swelling though and chose to wait until Tuesday before weighing in. All day Monday, I guzzled water trying to flush all the salt out. Tuesday, I found that I had gotten the scale to go back down some, but hadn’t lost any weight this week. :( I was hoping to get get down into the 220s this past week but it just didn’t happen. I’m pushing for it this week though!

So far this week I’m doing okay, but not fabulous. I still feel bloated and swollen some, but I’m guzzling water again today and I took a water pill. Three days later, I still feel like crap! THE DEVIL, I tell you! SALT IS THE DEVIL! I need to keep this in mind next time I want to go out to eat… that if I eat crap loaded with sodium, I’m going to feel like crap for days!

The birthday party weekend trainwreck!

I think it went beyond trainwreck, but I can’t think of anything worse than that right now. My little girl turned 2 yrs old today, but we celebrated on Saturday. I made a cake and ate it, and ate and ate and ate. I think Reese’s kids finished it off! Thanks guys, appreciate it!

It all started Thursday night with Supernatural and Pizza Hut pizza and breadsticks. Then it went to Olive Garden on Friday night. Saturday it was grilled chicken, mac salad and potato salad washed down with birthday cake. Sunday it was Cici’s for lunch and a big burger for dinner. Tonight it was mexican at my brother in law’s house. None of the above are truly good for you, especially when not portioned right.

It ok though. I’m walking (hopefully just walking) with Reese tomorrow, I hope, and I get back on the wagon tomorrow. Wish me luck

My Train Wreck

Hello… Is anyone still here?

I don’t know about you guys, but its been kinda a rough week. It didn’t start out that way. As a matter of fact, I did well until Friday. Then, this weekend turned into an absolute train wreck. At work we had a “Fun Food Friday” where everyone brings some sort of dish. Usually, its a bunch of finger foods, appetizers, and deserts. While I didn’t have very much, what I had wasn’t good.

My mom came up to visit this weekend too. Friday night, we went to eat at Genghi’s Grill. That was mostly protein, but still had fried rice in it. Not horrible, but by the time I got home, I could already feel my fingers swelling from the sodium. Saturday wasn’t much better. We ate brunch at a local owned diner and then had Applebee’s for dinner. I had a steak and baked potato. Again, not horrible but I should’ve picked a lighter selection. This morning, mom wanted pancakes for breakfast so I made some. Breakfast was 12 points but we ate late so I skipped lunch. Having some gift cards to Red Lobster left over from last weekend, we decided to eat there. I had every intention of getting the Grilled Shrimp and rice, but yet again I gave in to the temptation and got something I shouldn’t have. And there were cheese biscuits again. Not mass quantities, but still.

I’ll be surprised if I lost any weight this week. As a matter of fact, I’m kinda expecting a gain due to all the sodium and water weight. My fingers feel like Vienna sausages right now. I’ll be back on track for sure tomorrow though.

So how’d everybody else’s week go?

Last Night

Alright, so I hurt today. I mean REALLY hurt. My left knee feels like it’s going to buckle with every step I take, and I blame it on…myself.

I went over to Reese’s house last night for a work-out, and I’ll be damned if she didn’t work me out. I picked the video, which was a Jillian special, working out your butt, thighs, back and biceps. Let me tell you, it was brutal, very intense. I ended up running/hobbling into my house and straight for my recliner to watch The Biggest Loser.

I concluded the show feeling angry and sad. Angry that someone who doesn’t deserve to be there stayed and one of the people that DID deserve it had to go home. I feel for Jerry, he’s like everyone’s favorite grandpa. I cried as he was voted off the ranch.

I have set a couple new goals.
1. To get through that blasted video! Reese, we’re gonna PUSH ourselves even more the next time we do that video!

2. To lose 89lbs by my birthday next November. That means losing about 2lbs a week.

I’m positive that all of us can lose the weight and reach our goals if we just push ourselves enough. As hard and as sadistic as Jillian is, I wish she were my trainer. Reese is doing an awesome job in that department. I wish she had picked me up by my hair last night when I sat down. *S* WE CAN DO THIS if we put our minds in the right place.

No more junk food. I have actually stopped stocking my pantry with chips and sweets.
More water. Actually I’m not sure I can drink more water. *S* But I’m going to try.
Exercise. Even if it’s just walking up stairs or down the street. Lets get up and do it. I think I’m going to buy one of those things that counts every step you take. Then I can push myself to take more and more steps.

I’m going to do this! I’m going to reach my goals!

Who’s with me?

Week 2

Hey ladies! Sorry I haven’t been posting much, I’ve been a little busy.

Anyway! I’m happy to report that I lost 5lbs, and I feel awesome! I’ve been trying to eat better, and I’m walking with Reese. She’s totally kicking my butt! By the time we were done last night I could have sworn I’d run a marathon, but it’s alright. She decided to walk faster and add some distance which killed me. And no that wasn’t wa murderous gleam, that was my heart stopping and my going pale at the thought of running at the end of the week. Maybe I can convince her to do a workout with me after walking tonight.

I’ve been eating Healthy Choice Fresh Mixers for lunch lately. They’re actually pretty good. Today I’m having southwestern style chicken with rice. It’s a microwave lunch thing. The pasta/rice and sauce are seperated. You add water to the pasta/rice and nuke it. Then microwave the sauce, mix and enjoy. They are awesome!

Well, I need to get to work around here and finish my lunch.
Everyone is doing awesome, keep up the good work!

Beginning Week 2

Can you believe that we’ve made it through the first week already?! The past couple of days were a struggle to me, but overall I’m pleased with how this past week went.

I did go to Red Lobster with my family on Saturday afternoon. They were absolutely packed and we had to wait over an hour outside in the cold. By the time we finally got seated, we were all starving. When I sat down, my determination to eat something healthy was completely blinded by my hunger. {and the cheese biscuits} I only had 2 cheese biscuits though and didn’t ask for a refill on the bread basket. Usually, I would have. I ordered a shrimp dinner. Shrimp is a good choice if its grilled. Mine, however, wasn’t. I had shrimp scampi, fried shrimp, and shrimp linguine alfredo. That’s my usual there, only I can never eat it all. This time was the exception. I ate every single bit of it. In the back of my mind I was thinking that “I still had 18 WW points left for the day as well as all of my 35 flex points left. I could fit this in and not completely bankrupt my points balance. This was my cheat for the week.” Even though that meal didn’t go as well as I had planned, I was still OK.

Last night, I was invited to go see Twilight again with some friends. Of course I had to go! I’d been at work all day and hadn’t eaten anything. I thought I might gnaw my arm off and didn’t really want to tempt myself with nachos, popcorn, candy and soda. I had some food stored in the fridge at work so I made a quick chicken wrap before heading to the theater. That helped. I wasn’t starving when I got there, but got some popcorn anyway. It wasn’t horrible, but I could’ve done without it.

Most days I had quite a few points left for the day and I didn’t touch my flex points at all until the weekend. I had 6 flex points leftover for the week even after the splurge. And with everything said and done, I lost 6lbs last week! **does the cabbage patch dance** I’m looking forward to this week and hopefully another loss.

Oh, I updated the ticker on my page.

Gotta Have a Game Plan

So ladies, how’s it going? Are you still hanging in there? We’ve made it through the first work week and have the weekend yet to survive. I’ve managed to maintain a reasonable amount of self control this week and I’m pretty stoked about that. Tomorrow will be my test though. My family and I are going out to dinner to spend the Red Lobster gift cards we all got each other for Christmas. I’ve been scouring the online menu already trying to decide what I can have. The cheese biscuits may very well be the death of me. Seriously. Do you know the love I have for these delicious morsels of heaven? The cheese. The garlic. My gosh. I don’t care for fish. Maybe I can get some grilled shrimp. Well, we’ll see. If worst comes to worst, I still have all of my WW flex points for the week. Wish me luck!

Update: Hark! I found exactly what I needed! The nutritional info! Cheddar Bay Biscuits are 4 WW points each! I’m so screwed! LOL

Day 3 and how I feel

Alright, so it’s day 3 and I’m feeling pretty good.  I woke up in an awesome mood.  For the first time in a LONG time, I’m happy.  I’m looking forward to walking tonight with Reese.  I’m happy to be a mommy, and wife.  I FEEL GOOD!  I have resolved to NOT weigh myself everyday, and only do it once a week.  My son is happy and cooperative.  My daughter is her usual happy-go-lucky self.

For the first time in what seems like forever, I made my kids breakfast, not the usual poptart and milk.  They had scrambled eggs, a piece of toast and half a banana each.  They were thrilled.

I had 2 scrambled eggs, one with yolk and one without, topped with a slice of Kraft American Cheese and a little tabascco.  Also, 2 pieces of toast with a teaspoon of extra chunky peanut butter on each, with water.  I feel pretty good about my breakfast, and I’M FULL!  I’m feeling pretty damn awesome day.  I’m working on my 2nd bottle of water, I’m chipper, I actually have something I can’t remember having since I had children…ENERGY!  I feel like I can actually get up off my butt and clean my house from stem to stern.

I’m actually motivated to get this done.  To lose the 50lbs by June, and the other 50lbs by December.  My husband is very supportive, and he’s so happy with you guys for getting me to drink WATER.  I never used to drink water, now look at me!  I drink water all day long, with some Crystal Light To Go in it, but water all the same.

I’m not really sure what I’m going to have fun lunch though.  I have one more Healthy Choice pasta thing left, I might have that. 

I’ve been trying to snack throughout the day on healthy stuff like veggies or fruit.  I have some celery that I just might snack on this afternoon.  Tonight we are having baked chicken, baked potatoes, and broccoli.  Tomorrow I’m going to make Chicken noodle soup from scratch.  I’m pretty stoked about that as well.  I love to cook and bake.  I just have to get used to cooking healthier.

I hope everyone has an awesome day! 

And THANK YOU ALL for getting my butt in gear!

EDIT:  Alright, so I decided I’m gonna have the Healthy Choice pasta for lunch.  Then I’m gonna strap on my iPod, and bounce around the house while I clean.  Hehehe

EDIT:  I did have the roasted chicken for dinner.  I had my husband slice up a breast for me and I had 2 slices and gave the rest to the kids with a baked potato, a little bit of butter and ground pepper.  I also had a little bit of A1.  Yet again MORE water.  I also, made my husband really happy by actually doing the dishes right after dinner.  He’s really thrilled with my level of activity lately, which makes me happy.

my story

I never dreamed I’d be where I am today .. overweight and completely unhappy.  I’ve always been an active person and even after 3 kids I still kept a thin figure.  I never thought I’d be where I am today but here I am just over 200 lbs.  Far from the 135 I was just a few years ago.  Sadly today I weigh more than I did even during any my pregnancies *sigh*.   I’ve become accustomed to this vicious cycle I’ve found myself in .. I’m unhappy cause I’m fat but then I eat cause I’m happy  .. nasty circle that I’ve put myself throught for too long and it’s gotta end now.  I think like the other girls here it goes beyond just being “hot” again (although hell who doesn’t want to be hot right?) it’s about liking myself again, liking what I see in the mirror again, being able to walk up a flight of stairs without my heart racing like I just ran a marathon.  Speaking of marathons .. I want to be able to run one someday!  Most of all I want to be healthy cause I know now I’m not.  I’m hoping that along with my friends help here that we’ll be able to achieve that together!!  It’s not gonna be easy and I know I’m gonna hate it alot of the days but I want it so bad.  I want myself back and then after all the hard work us girls are gonna head to Mexico.  What better way to celebrate our hard work than a trip to the beach!!